Karina

The transition is tough

So, I found this band yesterday while I was racing around trying to get new stuff for my radio show, and I think they're awesome. They're called The Bloody Beetroots, and they caught my attention the second I pressed play.
Discoveries like this one are a reminder of how much I love music. With each beat, my heart beats stronger. I missed this feeling. It's also a reminder of how much I've been neglecting so many things that make me who I am.
It's amazing how much I've changed in one year. This time last year I was still taking classes, writing midterms, working, and being my usual normal self; going to concerts, hanging out with friends, being with my family, doing 800 different things all the time and still having time for myself.
This year I'm working full-time (and it's awesome!), I have a regular schedule for the first time in my life, but I feel like I don't have time for anything anymore.
I rarely see my friends, I don't hang with my family as much, and I seem to have lost some things that made me who I am. I don't have time for myself anymore.
I haven't been to a concert in ages, my journal's been neglected, my pens untouched, and I haven't had new music in months.
All of a sudden I'm turning down late-night movies, skipping parties, and staying home instead of getting out and socializing.
I'm barely in the city, I don't even walk anymore, and I never get the chance to listen to my iPod. I know that a lot of it has to do with transitioning from school to full-time work, but *sigh*, I really miss who I used to be.
I will never ever get used to waking up before 7 a.m. everyday (it should be a crime against nature), and I hate the fact that I have to go to bed before midnight when I'm a nighthawk at heart.
This all seems very unnatural to me. I guess I don't have a choice but to accommodate the changes. I just don't want to lose myself in the realm of regular schedules and normalcy.